God is all-knowing, all-powerful, and all good. He made the universe, from the biggest galaxies down to the tiniest subatomic particles. He knows everything, and as scary as that can feel when we think about the mistakes we’ve made and the ways we’ve wronged Him and others, that means that we never have to fear He’ll find out what we’re really like. He already knows, and yet He loves us anyway. Inexplicably, we’re welcomed as children and not condemned as criminals. He told us again and again through the Bible that He’ll provide what we need when we need it.
So why do we so often struggle to trust that He will?
People often ask me how my new job is going, and I have to explain that I’m not really working yet but only “working on working.” Before I can go active with SIM, I have to complete some reading, some online classes, and a mountain of support raising. Sometimes, it seems like a blur. Sometimes, it seems like it’s taking forever. Sometimes, people question whether it’ll ever come together.
They could be right, but the vast majority of support-raising missionaries eventually do reach our budgets and begin our work. It just might take longer than we want. In the meantime, we just have to move toward the work we believe God has for us and trust Him to provide what we need at every stage.
I had a good reminder on trusting Him and His timing last week. On Tuesday, someone again asked how this could possibly ever work out, and I again had to remind myself and her about trusting God to provide the funds when we need them. Late that night, I checked for an updated donation report from SIM, and we had received the largest donation to date. I was absolutely blown away.
On Wednesday morning, the team leader for TEN3 (the ministry to which I’m appointed) told me that he would be making a trip to Nigeria next month and wanted me to accompany him. The airfare was the lowest he’d seen in years, less than the donation that he didn’t know had been made the night before.
There was even enough left over to cover much of the visa application. Later Wednesday, two unsolicited donations arrived in the mail, accompanied by very encouraging notes. Those two donations covered the rest of the visa.
I’d better start reading more about Nigeria.
“May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.” Romans 15:13